The forgiveness process He's brought me through with different people in my life brings me to the place I am today. I DO feel free,... but something still lingers... What is it? The Lord continues to bring my counseling career to mind. My "dream" of going back to work... The resentment I feel towards my stay-at-home role... (tears...)
God, I want to embrace my role. And be at PEACE. I get to do that! Help me to be present. Help me to EMBRACE that! Could I stop "wishing"?
Let it go, Helen! I haven't finished my work in you. You need this time at home for things I will use you in the future. Let me work through you. Stop being so hard on yourself. It shouldn't be always easy. It takes WORK. But don't resent it. I've promised to be with you. And I never lie. I'll be with you.
Create in me a clean heart, God.
Thank you, God, for speaking to me this morning!
1 Peter 1:6-9
(*exerpt from my journaling & reflecting time at MOTTTS this morning)