The forgiveness process He's brought me through with different people in my life brings me to the place I am today. I DO feel free,... but something still lingers... What is it? The Lord continues to bring my counseling career to mind. My "dream" of going back to work... The resentment I feel towards my stay-at-home role... (tears...)
God, I want to embrace my role. And be at PEACE. I get to do that! Help me to be present. Help me to EMBRACE that! Could I stop "wishing"?
Let it go, Helen! I haven't finished my work in you. You need this time at home for things I will use you in the future. Let me work through you. Stop being so hard on yourself. It shouldn't be always easy. It takes WORK. But don't resent it. I've promised to be with you. And I never lie. I'll be with you.
Create in me a clean heart, God.
Thank you, God, for speaking to me this morning!
"In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls." 1 Peter 1:6-9
(*exerpt from my journaling & reflecting time at MOTTTS this morning)
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